Was filled with so many What ifs.. I can’t stop from what happen but hey, it’s something I gotta deal with. Gotta move on. Feelings get hurt all the time. I’m better off with someone else. Thank god April is coming up, I feel that next month is going to be a whole lot better. I blame the month itself, it’s green covered all over it. Damn Boston Celtic XP Should of known. haha
A 15 year old girl holds her 1 year old son, people call her a slut. But no one knew she was raped at 13. Make fun of someone for being fat, but you don't know that person has a serious medical condition that causes her to be fat. Call the old guy ugly, but you don't know if he got a serious face injury after serving the country or saving a life. Stop stereotyping and think before you start talking trash of others.
Lately, I been thinking about relationships. My relationship with my family, friends from high school, friends from college, exes, best friends, and you. You pretty much fit a part of all but one catergory.
Whenever I reminisce about my high school days, I think about you. It’s funny how up and down our relationship was. One year were talking the loads, the next year I would go the Mcdonalds after school to see you, the next year we’d go our seperate ways, next year we are super close again, and this year…was slowly fading and now its working its way back up. Honestly, it sucks when we dont talk. I hate how we lived in the same district but went to different schools. School is almost over and when school starts, for the first time in 5 years we be in the same school again. No distance, no problems, no drama. The thing I do like about you is how we never did have any complications and likely it wont ever happen. So right here is a promise..In the fall, promise me we still remain close. Promise me that you won’t forget about me and walk pass by me if we were to bump each other during our breaks. Promise me we wont be afraid to tell each other about anything..Promise me we wont go back to settling for less. Let’s bring it all back.
I learned a lot about friendships. I lost people that were once my best friends. I lost old friendships that I thought would last beyond high school. People I once trusted ended up showing me the opposite. Although I lost those people, I also built more valuable relationships with the people who stayed. I kept the friends that really mattered. I gained stronger friendships with people who were there for me. I realized that besides family, I only have a few people I can truly rely on, but that's okay. Having a huge group of friends isn't that great when most can care less about you. In the end, having a few valuable friendships with people who really have your back is always worth so much more.
Whatever ever happened to love and being happy Infatuated with lust, I loved you and now I’m backwards Time is of the essence, I broke it, took it for granted Love is like art, heartbroken on the canvas Painted the perfect picture, you seemed to never get it Colors prevail and you turn into a fucking monster Schizophrenic, nicknames Bonnie and Clyde Now doctors calling us Mr. and Mrs. High
When you talk to someone and you build a crush on them ? and they tend to give you signals that she/he has a crush on you too. As you guys keep talking everything is going great, you know she/he is the right one and next thing you know you see her/him talking to someone else and your heart just sinks into a black hole, a lot of thoughts in your mind. Well yeah it happened to me. If this haven’t happen to you well I’m warning you it fucking sucks.
So true. The best thing to do it let it go and move on. Because out there is someone much better for you.
“Good, better, best. Never let it rest. Until your good is better and your better is best." -Tim Duncan
One of my role models growing up was a basketball player. Not the guy who wore number 23 and not the guy who wore a purple and gold jersey. It was actually the guy from the opposing team we faced in the Black and silver uniform: Tim Duncan. The most humble guy out there. Never was in the spot light like Michael Jordan or Kobe Bryant. Wasn’t the most flashy guy out there. Wasnt athletic and sure wasn’t the guy you see as the life of the party. Dude was quiet. He was swimmer and didnt start basketball till his later teens. I don’t think people notice him. But you know what? He was one of the hardest guys out there. He didn’t give a damn about what people were saying. He let his hard work, determination, and humbleness speak for itself. 4 championships, 2 mvps, and is considered the greatest Power Forward of all time. Not bad for someone who was never in the spotlight like the ballers you hear today. He gave a reason for people to believe how great he was because he gave it his all. So before you guys say you can’t do it. Before you say that I’m not smart enough, I’m not strong enough, I’m not good enough. Those are just excuses. The only destination for us to go is up. Because the sky is limit for everyone. It just takes your desire to reach there.
Do you remember why your in school? Do you know why exactly?
In three days, I will be heading back to the dorms. This break has been good for me. I feel rejuvenated and re-energized. Spending my weekend with my family and neighbors was fun. Talked to friends I haven’t seen a while brought back memories. Old flames blazing once again. Eating home cook food for a week did me good. So on and so on. As this break is coming to an end, it’s time to face the truth. It’s time to grow up. This year so far has taught me a lot about my life, friends, family, and myself. We are all getting older and wiser every day. It’s been fun and a blessing to have met everyone from the program. Especially to those I have become so close too. Seems like every week, I learn more about the person and their story about themselves which got them where they are at today. There is a lot of deep stuff about these people that make me wonder…Have I fulfilled what I wanted to do so far? Although my grades have been good, I honestly think I could be doing way better. I feel that I’m wasting money that’s invested on my education on fun that I never got to have in high school. This is not me. I need you to come back to reality. Stop thinking basketball and start thinking about your future. Dream what you can become while working for that dream..There is less than month and a half before this semester ends. It’s time to step and push away these bad habits for good. Can’t allow myself to get in so much problems. I will still have fun but at a minimum. All this worrying about next year can wait. Never happened yet. So why bother. BUT..Damn it Allen, if anything, the one characteristic I’d like to see back is your motivation. I miss that about you. Time to pull yourself together bro..Bring back that person I used to know..the worker not the sleeper..
BTW..follow your instincts not the sake of others. You’re your own person.